Let me drive this home

Ok, so this one is going to be a little all over the place. I warn you/ apologize in advance! Can I tell you how hard it is to come home to your childhood house after being on your own for 5 years?! It's not that I'm ungrateful, but in 5 years time you develop your own pattern and rhythm to your days. Now I come home, and I'm having to re-learn the patterns of my father and brother. Sitting here in my childhood room, which has once again become my bedroom, feels like a lifetime ago. Memories of simpler times cover the walls. Finding a few straggler glow in the dark stars still stuck to the walls and ceiling also drove the point home. It's a weird feeling; although of all places I truly belong here with my family, I feel like a stranger in this house.
I really wanted to talk here about driving, literally, but decided against it. No one wants to read about my pet peeves when it comes to other drivers. I will say, use your dang blinkers, don't tailgate, if you are being passed on both the left and right move over, and a yield sign means that you don't have the right-away. Oh and dear PENDOT, cloverleaf exits/ entrances are never the answer. (For those that don't know what a cloverleaf exit is, I'll add a picture below.)
I had my year end review at work today. I can truly say that my work family is the best. The co-workers that I have I can truly call family (I mean that both figuratively and literally). Not only do I get to work with my father and brother, but also my best friends. I have never been so popular as I have been these last 3 weeks! Sometimes, it takes hitting absolute rock bottom for you to see things in a different light. These past 3 weeks, I have been blessed with the most loving and caring friends. Friends that I was once very close with, but fell out of touch with when life took us in different directions have reached out. People are checking on me, trying to keep me busy, trying to make me laugh. I have to believe that this is a true reflection of myself. I must be something special to have such amazing and wonderful people care about me. I believe that you get from life what you give. If this is any indication of what I have given to those around me, I cannot help but be amazed.
In the drive to talk with other people and get a feel for the dating world again (*cringe*), I had joined an online dating site. I mentioned in an earlier post that I ended up running into my cousin's ex on the site. Wouldn't you know, the ding dong thought it wasn't weird and thought he still had a chance?! Sorry buddy, I'm not about keeping it in the family. I had to break it to him, and his response... "It's too bad. I would have like to have dated you, or at least hooked up." And this is why you are 33 and single. There may have been other things that helped drive home the validation as to "and this is why you are still single". The internet makes people brazen; there's no need to be shy or timid online. You can get away with saying that "you would be a good hook up". If you were looking me in the eye, would you have the go-nads to say these things to me? I get that people lie online as well, but what would a girl get out of lying about her height (5'11")? I mean seriously. I could see if I put 5'4" in my profile and you questioned that, but what would I gain from lying and saying I'm 5'11"? If anything, as a girl saying that you are 5'11", you are further limiting yourself. Some guys don't like girls that are taller than them or the same height as them. Although I won't complain about my height, I wouldn't have hated to be a few inches shorter.... you know for someone as clumsy as myself 5'11" is a darn long way to fall!
It's late, and tomorrow is still a work day so I'm going to call it a night. My last sentiment is "thank you!" For those of you who don't know, blogs give you a total view count, and this site gives you the view count on each post. My last 2 blog posts generated 4x the viewership than any other post I'd ever done. I don't know if what I'm writing is that interesting, or relatable, or if people can't look away like watching a car crash in slow motion but regardless I am completely humbled that you would take the time to read through my posts. Have a great Friday and weekend all!