Time to think

I'm sitting here waiting on my car to be inspected and new tires to be put on. The time, and endless CNN loop have given me time to think and reflect. I'm overwhelmed by the responses to my last post. I appreciate the love and support that was sent my way. Thank you all.
Everyone is saying "at least it happened now, and not after you were married". The sad fact is, marriage would not have changed things. Being together for 6 years, our lives were already so entwined, that we are basically "getting a divorce" with out the lawyers and legality of it all.
I am grateful that we are both responsible and kind-hearted people. There will be no battle over material possessions. The material-ness of it all isn't the biggest issue. You don't realize how tied your life is to the people in your significant others life. The feeling is one of losing my own family. Although I want to keep in touch and have a relationship with his family, I understand that life may not work that way... That time and distance may separate us.
Thinking about moving again, selling our house, dividing up possessions, packing. What can I afford? What do I want? Do I go back to NJ or stay in PA? Do I rent something out try to buy a condo?
Thinking of the dating world and the future is terrifying. Signing up for online dating, downright cringe-worthy. Having your cousin's ex message you on said dating site, mortifying! I never thought I'd even have to think of dating again.
I'm going to make it through!

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